Mindfulness: August

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Uh oh. We’re 11 days in to September and I still haven’t written about my mindfulness topic for August, which I guess shows you just how mindful I’ve been feeling. Not very.

It’s been a tough few weeks as is always the case during a flare up, but it’s been an odd flare up that has effected my body in a new way so I’ve felt like I’ve had to go back to basics to cope with it. As pain steps up a gear, anxiety steps up a gear, and all the while I’m busy as busy can be.

August’s mindfulness tips from Yvette Jane’s ‘365 Days of Mindfulness’ have included some really basic tips that would certainly make for a more mindful existence. Suggestions include getting up twenty minutes earlier so you’re not rushing your start to the day, using your non-dominant hand whilst eating/writing to focus your mind, and planning a mindfulness-themed weekend away. However, I’m focusing on:

REMEMBER YOU DON’T ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY YES.
OPEN UP SOME SPACE IN YOUR LIFE BY SAYING ‘NO’! 

This is a good one for me because I’m not very good at saying no. People make fun of my diary and tell me I can’t complain about being busy because it’s my own fault – which is very true – but I think it’s more complicated more than that.

I’m a communicator. I do not cope well with emails/texts/whasapp messages that go unreplied. If you message me I will reply as soon as is physically possible, even if it’s just to say I’m busy and will reply later. If someone says, “we should do something soon,” I make a plan. If someone asks if I want to go somewhere or do something, I say yes – even if it’s something I don’t want to do. My work diary is just as bad, and my to-do list is ever growing.

I wonder why.

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Well, I kind of know why. If I didn’t force myself to do stuff, I wouldn’t do anything. I’d hide away in a hole and not be very sociable. I’d do more of the things I currently wish I did, like write and read and save money and exercise. Instead, I claim not to have time for those things because I’m busy. It’s true, I am, but I force myself to do these things so that I don’t hide away; unfortunately that results in the busiest diary ever.

I’ve always wished I wasn’t so extreme, so black and white. Things either are or they aren’t, I want it or I don’t, it’s awesome or horrific, there is no middle ground, there is no mediocre. I know that’s not a good way to be, but I think it explains why I am so busy and sociable… the alternative is hibernation and I think that would be worse.

So, with this month’s mindfulness tips in mind, it is now my intention to slow down, reduce my plans, factor in some relaxation time and just be a little bit more balanced. I know I say that a lot, but I think I have officially reached my limit and hey, we all have to stop at some point.